Spm is over.

Prom is over.

I have no plans to go to college (or get a job) before my results are out.

So...

I was going to type something incredibly long and personal, then I didn't feel like it anymore.

Fact, everyone wonders what others think of them. No matter how high your self esteems is. You may not care, but you can't help but wonder. 

Looking at my blog posts, I sometimes wonder what people think of me. Personally I come of rather bimbotic and shallow most of the time. Maybe it's because I blog most when I am excited or bored but in a good mood. Hence the giddy vibe.

I read somewhere that something can only affect you for 12 minutes. After that, whatever you feel is entirely your doing. Now every time I am angry or upset, after 12 minutes I remind myself that what I'm feeling is my own fault and gradually it fades away. 

I have the utmost respect for this guy and people like him. A bit TMI but I can overlook that. His point is just amazing.

I'm not sure why but lately I've been longing to do something adventurous. Is paragliding considered adventurous?

Then again, I wouldn't mind a not so adventurous picnic on the beach.

I love the beach. The soft sand, the strong waves, the warm breeze, just everything. I feel very at peace on the beach. It's an almost spiritual experience all on it's own. However, I do despise over crowded polluted beaches. Hence the reason why I don't go to public beaches because 

a) There are a lot of people.

b) A lot of these people are horrible filthy creatures who don't know how to dispose of rubbish properly.

c) The beach is dirty thanks to those ignorant fools mentioned earlier as well as peeing babies.

d) I like quiet beaches so screaming children frightened by gentle waves and mothers yelling at their children to "COME AND EAT OR WE ARE GOING HOME RIGHT NOW" is really a turn off.

e) I just like to be surrounded by minimal humans at the beach. 

I love this feeling. You can just feel your heart pumping and your bones rattling against each other. If you've never been to a concert, you are seriously missing out. If you're 15 and above, you seriously need to lose your concert virginity. You're old enough.

Bullshit is also blogging to impress. Just saying.

Well that's all for today folks. Trials are approaching and after that, SPM. I'm afraid but I'll be okay. I refuse to let myself be anything less. Quote,

"You'll be alright, in the aftermath" - Adam Lambert

Leaving you with an awe inspiring piece of advice.

Snapshot Report Sense of Self-Worth  89 Your results indicate that your sense of self-worth is very healthy. You rarely, if ever, put yourself down or fall victim to self-depreciating statements. There are certain attitudes and beliefs that have been found to contribute to and "feed" a positive self-image, and you appear to have most of them. Examples would be believing that you deserve to be loved or respected, believing that you're good enough for someone, and focusing on your good qualities rather than only your perceived faults. While you may not necessarily feel all of these things all of the time, your opinion of yourself is quite positive. This is a healthy attitude to have, as a poor sense of self-worth can hold you back from pursuing your goals, cause you unnecessary stress, and even become self-fulfilling prophecies.

Well then.

Outlaws of Love (Live in Quebec) - Adam Lambert

It's his new song from his upcoming album.

I cried so much listening to this.

It's so beautiful and magical.

I can't wait for his album and for this song to sky rocket on the charts.

I've memorized almost the whole song already.

Heehee.

Only Adam can make "They say we'll rot in hell" a beautiful song lyric.

Can you tell I have so much love for this man?

Too bad I couldn't go up to him and hug him.

Even though he was like less than a meter away from me.

Stupid body guards.

I could've tried but then again things could've gone bad.

I don't know.

Guess I should've took the risk.

Oh well.

There's a reason for everything right?

And even though I didn't get to meet Adam, I managed to get an autographed album with a note.

;D

Also, I did get to meet Isaac and take a picture with him.

Isaac is so nice.

I swear we could be best friends.

HAHA.

Okay enough fan girling for me.

Gonna go eat lunch then study.

Study real hard so someday I'll be able to drop 40 000 USD just to hire Adam. 

Unless his price goes up.

No matter.

I'll just have to ensure that I'll have enough cash for whatever the price.

There, that's a good motivation to study.

Heh.

Okay good bye now.

And enjoy the video!

I promise, even if you don't cry, your goosebumps will come out.

So go watch it now.

RIGHT NOW.

Bye and have an amazing weekend.

:)

EDIT//

Posting the lyrics here for reference sake.
I apologize if it's inaccurate.
I typed it out myself as I was listening.

Oh, 

Nowhere left to go,

Are we getting closer, closer,

No, 

All we know is no,

Nights are getting colder, colder

Hey, tears all fall the same,

We all feel the rain,

We can't change

Everywhere we go,

We're looking for the sun,

Nowhere to grow old,

We're always on the run,

They say we'll rot in hell,

Well I don't think we will,

They've branded us enough,

Outlaws of love

Scars, 

Make us who we are,

Hearts and rules are broken, broken,

Far, 

We could go so far,

With out minds wide open, open

Hey, tears all fall the same,

We all feel the rain,

We can't change

And everywhere we go,

We're looking for the sun,

Nowhere to grow old,

We're always on the run,

They say we'll rot in hell,

Well I don't think we will, 

They've branded us enough,

Outlaws of love

(A series of 'Oh's)

Everywhere we go,

We're looking for the sun,

Nowhere to grow old,

We're always on the run,

They say we'll rot in hell,

Well I don't think we will, 

They've branded us enough,

Outlaws of love

Outlaws of love,

Outlaws of love,

Outlaws of love,

Outlaws of love.

I noticed that in 2009 I had 194 posts, 98 in 2010 and 6 in 2011 after this one. 
I was like is my life getting less interesting or ...?
So I went through my archives and no it is not.
I use to blog about all sorts of bull shizz. 
To my horror, I found out that I used terms like 'frenzies', 'lyf' and God knows what else.
AND I went through a highly unlike me pathetic twit phase.
I actually rolled my eyes at my own posts.
ROLLED MY EYES!
I am extremely embarrassed with my previous self.
I almost want to slap me.


Moving on, I did realize though, that I haven't changed that much.
I mean, of course you mature, your opinions as well as the things you stand for change but aside from those things, I really haven't changed all that much.  
Only some of the important parts did.


I found this and found it amusing somehow.
It's a post on what my name means.
The results were :


You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person


The you are usually the best at everything .... is not true though.
I suck at Add Math.
But a lot of it is true. 
I need to find out where I got this thing man.
They should end each sentence with 'but you're lazy' and it would be almost 100% correct.


Well this is where I say goodbye,
Have grandparents expecting me.
I'll be back.
Or not.

Guess who got free tickets to go?

;D

Hello hello everyone!

Dayum I haven't been here in awhile. 

:)

Anyway, back to Maroon 5.

For those of you who didn't know, they were here yesterday for the first time ever in M'sia.

Wanna know what my day was like yesterday?

Of course you do!

So I went to school and bla bla bla.

They had a 'karnival kerjaya'.

Was okay I guess. 

After school I went home, showered, ate lunch and poof I was out the door again.

Met up with my friends @ 2 something then got on the choo choo train.

Stopped at Amcorp to buy dinner.

Just a precaution cos when I went for Adam Lambert I had no dinner thanks to a certain F&B company that took forever to set up their stall. 

*glares*

Got back on the train.

Switched trains.

And arrived at the stadium!

We reached there at about 4 something 5?

We were in Arena B which is the area behind the VIP area.

Free standing, first come first serve.

That's why it was very important to go early.

:)

So yea, after reaching we just sat there and waited for them to open the doors.

Oh and to all the people who cut queue, I have one word.

KARMA.

I swear it felt like for-e-ver.

By the time they opened the doors it was 8 something.

Managed to get infront.

YAY!

Concert started @ 9.30 ish.

They started off with Misery and ended with Sunday Morning.

T'was really good.

Adam Levine spoke to the crowd a lot.

I didn't get why people screamed every time he opened his mouth.

When you scream. I can't hear him and you can't hear him so what's the point?

But screaming when he's finished is fine tho.

Moving on.

 He even stopped people from fighting.

I thought that was funny.

Apparently some folks all the way in front were fighting for a better view.

HAH.

Kinda like Malaysians on the road. 

Everyone wants to be in front.

Hehe.

On the other side though, there was this chick next to me who closed her ears every time people screamed or cheered.

At one point she even snapped at the people around her.

Like what's up with that?

If you wanted peace and quiet, you should've just stayed at home.

Then again, maybe she has a condition where high frequency sounds hurt her physically.

Idk.

But seriously tho, concert = fans in a confined area + adrenaline which also = screams.

Common sense much?

Okay enough of my ranting, here is the song list of last night's show.

Misery 

If I Never See Your Face Again 

Harder To Breathe 

Give A Little More 

The Sun 

Billie Jean 

Won't Go Home Without You 

Never Gonna Leave This Bed 

Secret 

What's Love Got To Do With It 

She Will Be Loved 

Wake Up Call 

Shiver 

Stutter 

This Love 

Hands All Over 

Makes Me Wonder 

Sunday Morning 

That's it from me for now.

Have a great weekend folks.

:)

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First of all

HELLO!!!!

:D

Dayum I haven't actually posted in a loooooong while eh?

Sorry.

My internet connection is just too crappy for blogging. 

It's so bad that I can't even get to my dash.

Aneewayzzzzzzz, I don't like James Durbin.

People keep comparing him to Adam.

He is NOT Adam.

They are dif-fe-rent.

Yes it really irks me that people are like "Oh that James guy is the next Adam Lambert!"

Please just go stick your head in a toilet.

Right now.

Just go.

Moving on, I like Thia.

She's good.

Okay no more AI talk.

I'm in like Form 5 now.

*horror screams*

Yea let's not talk about that.

This is so gorgeous no?.
*beams*

ACOUSTIC AFTERMATH IS TRENDING!!!!!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDD

Okay gtg.
Bye!
:)